Many of you are familiar with my son. Most of you know him as "The Boy." From birth he's been a character. He keeps the adults and children around him entertained with his bizarre observations and quirky behavior. But he's also a handful when it comes to chores and tasks that require multiple steps. He has frequent meltdowns that to the outside observer look like temper tantrums. After years of counselors, special ed, and finally a full psych evaluation, we have accepted the realization that he is in fact on the Autism Spectrum Disorder. He also has Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. We've got our hands full, but we already knew that. We've suspected this diagnosis for years.
He is high functioning, in the Asperger's range. He met all his developmental milestones as a baby and toddler, which is why the diagnosis is happening so late. He made good grades up through second grade so they had a hard time figuring him out when it came to special ed. He's now almost 10. To most people he seems "normal" but a bit odd, eccentric, quirky, undisciplined. But that doesn't mean he has it easy. This is something he will have to deal with his whole life.
He doesn't make friends easy. He's oblivious to social cues. He had one good friend at school but that friend's mom has forbidden her son from playing with The Boy because, among other reasons, he was being teased by other kids at school for helping my son. She also fears that he may be dangerous. He's not. He's gentle, loving and funny. She's ignorant about this disorder. But that doesn't change her decision.
Unfortunately, some of you reading this may be parents of those children who tease. You may say "not my son/daughter. They wouldn't tease a child for being different." But you aren't on that playground. You really don't know.
I spent some time with my son during recess today. We walked around and talked about what we saw. I could spot the "different" children instantly. They were usually alone. Sometimes content with that, sometimes not. The boy digging in the gravel, building pyramids. Alone and happy that way. The girl wandering around with her head down, looking up occasionally to watch the groups of giggling girls running around. She'd smile at them, hoping for an invite. But then return to her lonely wandering when no invitation came. Alone, but not wanting to be.
Another girl spent her recess alone, walking back and forth on the playgrounds edge, balancing herself on a straight line. Perhaps happy that way. She never looked up, never acknowledged anyone. My son left me once. To ask his lone friend if he could play with him. He returned to me seconds later. The answer was no.
I suggested to my son that he ask the boy playing in the gravel to play with him. He declined. I suggested he ask the girl wandering alone if she'd like to play. He declined. He didn't know how to make new friends. He shrugged with his head down and kicked some dirt.
As with most children with Asperger's, he's extremely intelligent, but his grades don't show it. He has trouble completing his work, staying focused and remembering to turn things in.
Many of our most brilliant artists and creators are just like him, or were at that age. Darryl Hannah (the actress), Clay Marzo (pro surfer), Tim Page (Pulitzer prize winning author), Courtney Love (alternative rocker), Matt Savage (musician), James Durbin (American Idol star), Tim Burton (creator of Nightmare Before Christmas among other masterpieces) and the one and only Dan Aykroyd. The list goes on and on. Some day they'll add my boy to the list of talented, prominent people with autism.
When The Boy was 7 he made a zombie movie with my iPad. It was without a doubt the most entertaining short film I'd seen in ages. At that time he said he wanted to be a film maker. He could be amazing if he pursues that path.
We had him enrolled in drum classes for a while. His teacher said he was a natural. He wrote songs and played the beats on a full set as he belted out his favorite original tune "The One Thing I Don't Think About is You." It was a brilliant break-up song. He could be a talented drummer in a famous band.
He loves video games and can master games quickly-- Often announcing to us a day or two after receiving a new game that he had "beaten" all the levels and was done with it. But he wishes it had more levels because it was fun. Perhaps we should stop buying and just rent them. He could have a career as a game maker.
He's interested in a lot of things that other kids his age are interested in -- comic books, games, super heroes. But not sports. He tried baseball and had fun at first -- until it got to be tedious. We had to forfeit a game because he refused to take the field for the final inning and we didn't have another player to take his place. He just decided he was done. That was not a fun evening.
Since the diagnosis we've come to terms with the fact that he will have to work harder his whole life at mundane tasks like homework, getting ready for bed, leaving the house every morning. That he will not do things the way other kids do and eventually other adults do them and that's okay. He's proud of the fact that he's different. "Different is good," he tells me.
We've found some good community resources to help us teach him ways of working with his "differentness." People keep telling me that he's "lucky" to have me and Jayme as his parents. But in my eyes, I'm the one who's lucky. I get to be his mom.
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